i sometimes log in like once every 2 or 3 years & am so surprised to see that anyone is still here.
this place was such a huge part of my childhood; one of the first sites i found when i got internet in 2008 when i was like 12 or 13.

for those who were unaware, i was behind many fake accounts, pretending to be boys or pretending to be pretty girls who all somehow knew the real me.
i grew up in a home where i was rejected by my family, and school life was basically the same, as the rejection by my family made me an awkward mess on top of also being a giant she-beast. i was very harshly rejected by most of my peers & was diagnosed with AVPD when i was 16 or 17. part of AVPD is creating a fantasy/make believe world to escape from reality to, so as messed up as it seems i was creating these fake accounts to feel wanted, cared for, and accepted by my peers.
i apologize to any people i hurt and misled over the years. i think the first 'big' fake that i did on here was as a boy named trevor. this was probably for 2 years around 2008-10. he was actually a boy named justin that i went to school with. i cannot even begin to name off the rest, the web became so intricate & extensive that i literally was just 'killing off' these fake people to not have to deal with it anymore.

it is really messed up but it's really telling to how mentally unwell i was at the time.
i don't really come on here often enough to answer questions in a timely matter, but if you were ever wanting to ask me if i was a fake you knew or to get closure on any hurt i put you through, please drop a comment and i will do my best to allow you that healing.

please try to keep in mind i am in no way the person i was when i last frequented on here ( i think that was like 2012, so i was 18??? i'm like 27 now lol) i'm married with kids now & living a happy life despite the setbacks. i hope you all have been doing the best you can, the world is crazy these days & if i can do anything to help lift some weight off your shoulders just let me know.

7/19/2021