Edited on 28th June 2013: I know I've said that I've moved and you can find me /users/torches. but I want to cherish this beautiful account of mine. I guess I'll be finding old friends. So hi, hi! It's been 3 years!
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Hello, all my fellows! It's Teddy here, yes. I've disappeared from this account 3+ years ago. I've been really stupid 3 years ago, and changed a lot. I graduated from 8th grade today! And next school year i will be officially a high school student. I've changed a lot, I think. I don't like Taylor and Adam that much as before, but I still adore Fearless and Ocean Eyes like the old times. Now I'm more into Foster The People, Lana Del Rey, this kind of alternative music. And I'm watching Supernatural, great show! I should have finished season 7 today but I was out with my bestest friend ever and I met met boyfriend. He seems like a bright and idiotic (but not stupid) person. I like him and approve of him being with my best friend, I guess, haha. I am not good with relationships but I had my first kiss last summer. I regret it. Last summer my two girlfriends and I went to my ex-crush and my friends had to leave the city for a week, both of them, so I made company to my former crush so he asked me out when we were in his freaking bedroom! What could I have said? And, the creepiest part was that when I woke up that day, before going to his place, I was thinking "If Dean asks me out, I will say yes." And oh my gosh, yes I'm such a witch I can predict the future. So yeah, we started dating on a Monday, I think and on Saturday he kissed me, it was awful, haha, and then the next day I broke up with him because he was too straight-forward, I'm not such a kind of person.. Maybe if I still liked him back then, I wouldn't have minded but I didn't so I minded. So yeah, then I found out that he only used me but it's a long story to tell.
But when I started high school in September 2012 I met this guy. Aw, he's so cute. I've grown kinda attached to him. And we share a lot of interests... And the most important thing we share is that he's interested in spiritual things like me and yesterday he told me that he was learning all the stuff since he was 3 years old so that makes 12 years of learning. (Gosh, I can't believe that I'm going to be 15 soon! And I will probably sing 15 by Taylor, haha.) So, I will miss him. He might be leaving for Boston... Today might have been the last day I'd see his face ever again! I don't want to lose him, it's been only 9 months with awkwardness but I love him. Now, don't get me wrong, I msotly love him in a friendly-ish way, but I believe I could love him in any way: as a brother, as a father, as a friend, as a lover... In any kind of way. Thank God he once had to leave when the head teacher wanted our documents of birth so he gave his to me and his student's book so I made a picture of the photo in his student's book, haha. I'm a bit stalker-ish but the only photo I had of him was his back... So yeah. Now he's at his hometown for the weekend and there's no Internet and we won't be able to Skype, what a shame. I feel guilty for not telling him that he was going to be questioned in History but the teacher still wrote a B as his final grade for the year. Aw, we almost have the same grade; I finished with a full B (which in a band will be 5) and his was a bit above a B (band: 5,10). If only I had a B in Biology instead of a B and if I had a C in Physics instead of a D... I could have been able to get scholarships next year, sigh. But I am happy that I graduated with a B considering that I didn't study much. My best subject is English hand probably as you can see, I've got some progress. I can't believe that in 3 years I will probably get a certificate and I will be able to work anywhere in the world where English is spoken! I hope to have enough money to study psychology in Scotland. I said this to my English teacher today and I said that I chose Scotland because it's cheaper than in England and she said that it was possible to go to uni in England despite the high prices per semester and that there were some kind of loans that let you study. Aw, it would be amazing if I ever go to England, hopefully I will be somewhere close to my guy friend... Imagine, even if I went to Scotland and he had chosen England instead of Boston, I would still be close to him! We might even meet... Why not. Sigh, I hope he is in the city when I am this summer.. If only we both had the courage to arrange a meeting. You know, he's such a close friend to me, but we are both kinda shy, haha. I don't know how he considers me though... I consider him as one of my closest friends... Maybe I'm not even his friend. But oh well... He was once telling me about the space and NASA and some top secret things and he was like "We have to go there someday. I will probably send you to the Moon." And he once tweeted me a fact that on Mars or Jupiter it was summer all year around and he was like "Are you ready for a little trip?" And all these things make me really happy because he actually reckons us going somewhere together, maybe. It would be lovely. And I know I'll never be bored around him because I can tell him almost everything and we can discuss deep topics about life and share our opinions. And after all, we both share a liking for Coldplay and Supernatural, haha. Yeah, I guess he's a great guy.
But I'm also sad that I might be seeing my English teacher for the last time tomorrow. I'll be having my first conference ever tomorrow and it's going to be something about English and we'll go there together. She's such a nice teacher, she won't be teaching at my school anymore.
It's weird, before I stepped into that high school I said to myself that I don't need any new friends but I'll be missing two people now, if he ever leaves me.
Sorry for the long text but it's past midnight and today's the conference and it was the last day of 8th grade and I just want to share everything somehow, even if nobody reads this bullshit. But if you're one nosy ducky, well congrats, you've read the end of this book!