lonely, desperate, miserable: 3 words to describe me.
NBSB (no boyfriend since birth)
and still, doesn't want to have a bf.
needs to finish studies first! :D
i'm not like my other friends, who have alot of boyfriends.
that's why I don't talk to them anymore. I stay away from them,
they are BAD - INFLUENCE!
I found some friends who are not really popular, some average people whom I can trust! unlike the other Flirts before. err!
but I don't really like making friends, or having alot of friends for fame. (I'm not one of them)
coz, people will just talk behind your back..
see, I don't want more friends.
5 friends or 6 is enough.
one of my "popular" friends told me:
" hey, why don't u like to join us?! we're talking about guys! hey did u know the new guy in school? omfg he's freakin hot! "
SEE, FUCK THEM! LIKE I CARE? IM NOT LIKE HER!!
I'm a really girly girl, who loves pink so much.
I act so feminine, and gentle.
I love dancing so much! that's what makes me happy.
but when we danced in our school program in the stage,
a friend of mine told me that ***** said that I'm
a flirt! WTF! I AM NOT A FLIRT! I AM NOT ONE OF THEM! I DON'T EVEN WANT TO GET TOO CLOSE WITH PEOPLE WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER!
that's why, I started crying and crying.
and after that day, I gave up my dancing career!
i moved on, but still..
and then, I stopped acting so girly and moving so feminine.
I am not so obsessed w/ pink anymore..
I don't love going out and hanging with my other friends anymore, (only if it's really important or a VERY SPECIAL occasion only!)
and I also learned to listen to rock music, I started to love the color black, I'm not afraid of being alone anymore. I hate noise. I'm not hyper and loud anymore! I guess my friends are starting to wonder why..
but I won't tell em' why.. I WON'T ...
even with my 6 closest friends.. I WON'T.
coz I don't open up to anyone.
Since I was a child, I don't open up or share something when I'm in pain. I'd rather keep it myself, than to share it..
and no one even knows that i'm not obsessed w/ pink anymore,
no one even knows that I cry everynight!! (yeah, so true) :((
and my friends always see me cry at school .. but
I dont tell them why. even though they keep on asking..
I wont tell em' why. I WON'T!
and I'm also a negative thinker (since I was born)
I'm studying on my hatest school in the philippines.
my mother wants me to study here..
I HATE THE PEOPLE HERE.
you know why? ..
I'll describe them:
FLIRT, BACKSTABBER, PLASTIC, RUDE.
see, I'd LOVE TO BE ALONE,
than to make friends with those
OH, HOW I JUST WISH,
THAT THERE'S SOMEONE IN THIS WORLD WHO CAN
BECOME MY BESTFRIEND,
NOT PLASTIC, NOT A BACKSTABBER,
WHO WILL NEVER LIE TO ME.. EVER!