It's okay. Life has just been a lot the past few years.
I am super thankful for my boyfriend. He was a coworker of mine and was a friend. Someone I talked to about anything really. He came into my life at the right time and I thank God daily for that.
My mom is extremely toxic. She has borderline personality disorder. It has not been easy growing up in a household with her, and I'm still living in this house with her. It has come to a point where I don't even feel like it is my house. I come home and she always has something to say, or complain about, or argue about. For example, I go food shopping for myself, because of numerous reasons, and I leave my groceries in a completely different area because she doesn't like that my groceries are there. So, I put them in our porch on a table that isn't being used. The fact that my groceries are there bother her so much that when she gets triggered she throws them out. Yup. She throws them out. And, I mean, I'm used to this. She's done worse, said worse... so none of this is new. I've learned to adapt and control my own environment and mental health so that I don't spiral, or get anxious or stressed out. If I could move out, I would. But, I have so much money in loans and I'm trying to pay that off. However, I realized, my mental health is so much more important. So, I've had conversations with my boyfriend and we're talking about possibly getting a place together in the future.
But, yeah. Enough of my rant for now. I don't wanna unload this all on you. I hope you're having a great week. I love you and I miss you. xoxo Ade
I am super thankful for my boyfriend. He was a coworker of mine and was a friend. Someone I talked to about anything really. He came into my life at the right time and I thank God daily for that.
My mom is extremely toxic. She has borderline personality disorder. It has not been easy growing up in a household with her, and I'm still living in this house with her. It has come to a point where I don't even feel like it is my house. I come home and she always has something to say, or complain about, or argue about. For example, I go food shopping for myself, because of numerous reasons, and I leave my groceries in a completely different area because she doesn't like that my groceries are there. So, I put them in our porch on a table that isn't being used. The fact that my groceries are there bother her so much that when she gets triggered she throws them out. Yup. She throws them out. And, I mean, I'm used to this. She's done worse, said worse... so none of this is new. I've learned to adapt and control my own environment and mental health so that I don't spiral, or get anxious or stressed out. If I could move out, I would. But, I have so much money in loans and I'm trying to pay that off. However, I realized, my mental health is so much more important. So, I've had conversations with my boyfriend and we're talking about possibly getting a place together in the future.
But, yeah. Enough of my rant for now. I don't wanna unload this all on you. I hope you're having a great week. I love you and I miss you. xoxo Ade
Posted on: Apr 17th 2024, 6:46:25am