this. this. i cant even breathe.
nikki... my nikki. god please no.
ohmygod i cant believe she's gone...
my heart will never be whole again. never.
nikki you'll be in my heart always. forever.
So if you're a friend of mine, and I gave you a link to this page, this is pretty much the reason why I wasn't online. I wasn't busy with my mom's birthday. She did have her birthday, but I wouldn't be busy 'cause of that. read my comment below and you'll see why I wasn't able to get online.
attention to all of Nikki's friends and especially to her best friends..
I know it's really hard to believe right now, but here goes..
(for some of you who don't know, me and Nikki are friends in real life)
(oh and please don't scroll all the way down yet, you might wanna brace yourself first.. and read the rest of the story..)
Well, she gave me a message for all of you. I was just too stupid to ask for her password before it was... too late..
"Please tell all my friends I love them. Nicki, India, I want you guys to know I love both of you so much. I hope you understand me for not telling you.. I love you too much for that. good bye.."
I tried the best I can to take in all that she said. I was crying so i forgot the names of her other friends, sorry..
The reason she left was not because of her boyfriend. They were still together before.. it happened. I know, you're really confused right now, but I'll try to explain it as best as I can. She would want me to..
Nikki had cancer. Stage 4.. Unfortunately, she didn't make it.. Her date of death was 5/2/10. I was gonna explain sooner but I was worried I might kill my keyboard with tears, like I'm doing now, but I don't care..
Her days were numbered when she came back to g-g. She tried to tell you guys, but I guess it hurt her too much to do it herself. I always bring my laptop to her at the hospital (it was St. Luke's at the Philippines) and we'd go on g-g together. I'd watch her talk to you guys as she typed while wiping tears off her eyes..
The memory of her is still incredibly fresh for me to go through the details.. I miss her terribly, more than any of you can understand.. I loved her so much. She was the sister I never had (I had a sister but I just don't like her :/) I may not be her "bestest" friend, but we were really good and tight friends. We kept no secrets from each other, other than our passwords. I love her and I always will. I'm pretty sure all of you think the same.
R.I.P.
Nicole Marie "Nikki" V.(Vito) Cruz
{05/02/10}
I hope you will all cherish the memories of her
She was a hilarious girl. A huge twilight fan. I love her for leaving all her twilight books to me. Sometimes we'd watch Hannah Montana, Sonny With a Chance, And W.O.W.P. with me. I remember her requesting me not to post her pics anymore, so I won't.. I guess God just wanted more angels up there.. I hope you all pray for the soul of nikki cruz, may she rest in peace..
